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Yesterday I was absent from school, because I was ill. Anyway today I didn't understand nothing what was happened(almost nothing). And nobody didn't really tell me not much too. Altogether, it was weird day (at school and ... altogether) : our class teacher wasn't at school for some unknown reason, so our time table was bollixed up. We had 2 maths. :S
Some Finnish tourist came to see our school. One my classmate shouted on window to them, "Poro!" Which means in Finnish 'reindeer'. But he is nuts...
As I mentioned before, that nobody didn't tell me not much what was happened, so I felt quite lonely. I mostly speaked with Sandra, but I kinda made her angry with my stupit talk. So she chased me, because I think she wanted somekind a revenge or something. I ran away. Mostly for my luck I was faster than Sandra. At a later time one my classmate ran out from class at the break and every one were talking that she was crieng, but same time everyone was deny that. So I started feel like I was a somekind a outsider.
Everyone else but me (and Sandra, but she wasn't interested of that) was knowing what was going on. And if I asked anyone what was happening then, then they answered that they can't tell (or they didn't want to tell).
But actually I'm quite used to that I'm lonely. At breaks I usually sit on the "little steps" front of form 6 and I listen to music, sometimes I draw to, then some people come to sit next to me and beg me that I'll draw for them. That sucks. It really sucks. And if I draw for them, then they want more and more... People usually think, when I sit there on the "little steps" and listen to music and draw then I can't hear nothing what people, who are sitting next to me, are talking about. Thats wrong, I usually hera what their talking about, and I've herd that how some thing that I souldn't hear. It wasn't nothing bad but just I wasn't meant to be hear that... Actually its sad that I've felt lately so lonely, but I'm used to with that... they say that human can used to with everything. Or can't they?
Servron, I wanted to say I want help you or give you some advice, but I don't know how to help you. I think I know
what you are feeling, when your friend betraied you. I've feel same way some years ago, when one my classmate, I don't know how to say because I don't know it exactly,but my classmate kinda turn my friend against me. Before that our class had a "big fight" : class had splited to two (actually three: boys too but they didn't care) me and some people more and my friend some people more who was "my side's" friends. I don't remember what was the cause of the trouble. Anyway me and my friend relationships were quite bad and that classmate made them worse. She was able to turn almost whole class against me. >_< Then I was a real outsider. Somehow I could find a way out of that trouble. And I hope so can you.
clubs.


friends .